Little (or Big) Things to Ponder

So recently I have been reading this totally awesome book entitled "Authentic Beauty" by Leslie Ludy. This book has set out to help in "shaping the heart of a set-apart of young woman." This book has been a huge encouragment to me in so many ways already, and i haven't even gotten that far into it. In this book the one thing that it talks about is that inside every young woman there is a princess who is in search of a prince. Alot of books now a days they kinda make a woman, such as myself, think that its not ok to dream those dreams you dreamt as a young girl after watching all those disney princess movies, but in reality its ok to have those desires of a prince ... our God created woman to have those desires ... but he created those desires to be used to long for Him, you see - He is our relentless pursuer and longs to have the intimacy and passion that we as woman so desparatly crave for in human men ... when we in our human natured crave a man's attention then we are only putting that guy above our Prince. Its not that our Prince does not want us to desire a man of our dreams, but when that desire comes above our desire for Him. There is a phrase that I have said many times before and I am really starting to take it to heart, it says "A girl's heart should be so lost in God, that a man would have to seek God in order to find her" and that is so true i have meantioned before that God will only give us the desires of our heart if we believe and seek after Him. A truely God-centered relationship only happens when we (the guy and girl) and so in tune to with God, that God will naturally bring them together in His timing.

Just recently in the last few months I was praying really hard about going on a missions trip and i really thought that thats what i was going to do come spring break - but again here is another example of how God's plans are NOT my own ... long story short ... i am not longer going on the mission trip that i was planning on it and at first i was really bummed about it ... until recently when i realized that yeah i do have a mission ... a mission field right here at work ... please pray that i can be a witness to those in the kitchen !!!

Waiting on God ... Lesson #1

So last night my friend and i opened up God's word to read about what God has to say about waiting on him ... when looking at the passages that deal with "waiting on God" one of the first scriptures passages i look at is Isaiah 40:28-31

"Hast thou not known?

hast thou not heard,

that the everlasting God, the LORD,

the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary?

there is no searching of his understanding.
He giveth power to the faint;

and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
Even the youths shall faint and be weary,

and the young men shall utterly fall:
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength;

they shall mount up with wings as eagles;

they shall run, and not be weary;

and they shall walk, and not faint.

the word wait in this passage talks about a "stillness". "waiting on God" signifies "be silent" or "only be silent" before God. "Wait" sometimes means "to cease" or "to stop" whatever action may have been taking place.Sometimes in life we just need to stop in the busyness of life and be quiet and listen for the still small voice of our Savior talking to us. Prayer is not a one way communication but rather it must be two ways, there is a reason that we have two ears and one mouth. One thing that i have learned through studying this part of scripture is that during my personal prayer time, whether its public or private prayer, I need to take some time just to be quiet and listen for God's voice to speak to me. Prayer is just not about coming before a holy and just God to give him our prayer requests but to open our hearts up and confess our sins before our Father, so that we may have full and clear communion with Him.

Alot of people go to prayer full of desires that they want to be filled, but in Psalms 37:3 &4 two things must happen in order for our desires to be given to us. The first thing it says is to "Trust in the Lord" - this is not just "trusting" in God to save you, but its an everyday thing to deny self and trust Him for EVERYTHING. Trusting him does not mean that you worry about things and its not something that you just do one time and not do ever again ... but rather its a daily denial of self and recognizing Jesus as having Lordship in our lives, and seeking Him every single day. The second thing it says that you should do in order to obtain the desires of your heart is to "delight" in Him. What exactly does this mean to take delight in something? When i think about the word "delight" i think of a child on Christmas morning while opening his or her presents or a child eating ice cream and taking delight or joy in each and every bite, just like these examples we should be taking delight in our Savior and enjoying every aspect of who he is. When all is said and you are trusting in the Lord and Delighting yourself in Him, nothing else will matter and then and only then will He be the desire of your heart !!

Waiting on God ...

So i have been really struggling on waiting on God's timing lately in alot of areas in my life ... so a friend of mine challenged me to write a devotional on it that way not only would just study God's word but i would make challenging ways that it could impact my life and the people around me ... and at the same time ... i could truly have an idea of what it means to "wait on God's timing"

so a friend of mine told me that i should get on here more often ... so i am going to ... move over facebook and xanga ... there is a new person here in town ... welcome back to the blog world me !! ... so tomorrow is Sat and i am looking forward to going shopping with some friends and then maybe i will stop by the b-ball game later on in the day ... but tonight was really amazing i went down to the underground for sweet treats ... it was such a fun time !! and DAN NICOLS stopped in to see us ... yay !!! ... here are some pics of the night .

the next photos are of two boys that are very close to my heart ... they have been through alot in their little life ... and i am afraid that they will still have many trials to overcome ... so just keep them in your prayers ... and yes they are twins ... haha ...

ok i am back from summer vacation and back at BBC ... agh ... i love life here ... but sometimes it seems soo hard ... please pray for me !!!

day in the life of a bored girl ...

so here i am at work really, really bored ... but o well it Saturday so what do you get ?? this is the last week before my vacation to Hershey Park!! .. i am soo excited about that ... ok enough with all this i am tired of blogging ... i need to get this started soon ... haha